Champion Defined........
Today was one of "those" days for me. Quite frankly, I am battling a deep sense of loneliness. Not just in the sense of relationships, but also in this point of my life. I am taking little leaps of faith that have me jumping from safety and security and leave me feeling very alone. This is not a new emotion for me, it is actually one that I am very familiar with and one that aided in getting me to where I was three years ago. Loneliness has not disappeared from my life - I have just changed the way I react to it and how I find the courage to take a deep breath, really feel and live through the emotion, and move on.
That loneliness continued today for me at the gym during my workout. I had looked forward to working out with a dear friend of mine and felt I could not do it alone. I didn't want to be alone......anything but feel that loneliness again today. She wasn't able to make it, and there I was - in a gym - surrounded by people, yet immensely alone. I had two choices. I could go home....no one knew where I was or would have cared that I left. Or, I could dig in deep within myself and find the gumption to do what I came to do. I don't always choose the latter, but today I knew that quitting would make me feel even worse.
So..... I ran my two miles...
which reminded me of a girl who couldn't even walk on a treadmill for 10 minutes without pain and difficulty breathing.
And then..... I then strapped on my lifting gloves and headed to the "big boy" weights.....
and was reminded of that same girl who was once so timid that she couldn't look people in the eye let alone walk with confidence and take her place amongst other athletes.
I then I began.....(and finished) an amazing workout by an excellent trainer who wanted to "challenge" me.....
and was reminded of the girl he started training 3 years ago who was afraid to try new things, never imagined herself capable of working out so hard, and didn't believe she could reach her goals or deserved her dreams.
Guess what? She does, and she did. And she does every day....she continues to overcome and challenge herself and take little leaps of faith. Whether overcoming loneliness, or daring to step out of my comfort zone, THIS girl believes that anything is possible for herself and for others.
And almost as if Adam (my trainer) knew what was going on in my head.....he walked over and said, "What - no workout partner?" I shook my head.
He smiled, and said, "But you're here, and this is what makes a champion."
That loneliness continued today for me at the gym during my workout. I had looked forward to working out with a dear friend of mine and felt I could not do it alone. I didn't want to be alone......anything but feel that loneliness again today. She wasn't able to make it, and there I was - in a gym - surrounded by people, yet immensely alone. I had two choices. I could go home....no one knew where I was or would have cared that I left. Or, I could dig in deep within myself and find the gumption to do what I came to do. I don't always choose the latter, but today I knew that quitting would make me feel even worse.
So..... I ran my two miles...
which reminded me of a girl who couldn't even walk on a treadmill for 10 minutes without pain and difficulty breathing.
And then..... I then strapped on my lifting gloves and headed to the "big boy" weights.....
and was reminded of that same girl who was once so timid that she couldn't look people in the eye let alone walk with confidence and take her place amongst other athletes.
I then I began.....(and finished) an amazing workout by an excellent trainer who wanted to "challenge" me.....
and was reminded of the girl he started training 3 years ago who was afraid to try new things, never imagined herself capable of working out so hard, and didn't believe she could reach her goals or deserved her dreams.
Guess what? She does, and she did. And she does every day....she continues to overcome and challenge herself and take little leaps of faith. Whether overcoming loneliness, or daring to step out of my comfort zone, THIS girl believes that anything is possible for herself and for others.
And almost as if Adam (my trainer) knew what was going on in my head.....he walked over and said, "What - no workout partner?" I shook my head.
He smiled, and said, "But you're here, and this is what makes a champion."
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